so i've been out of college for nearly a month now and i figured that i would have got a full time job, nothing great just something. but no. noone will hire me and i dont blame them, not qualified or experienced enough for any of these jobs and im just useless. feel disgusting all the time and i just constantly want to cry. i dont do anything anymore, just stay inside and watch films, or jus do nothing, just want to sleep. thought id be able to get a job and start saving so i can move out sooner and be with catherine more. and i dont get to see her as much anymore and i dont like not being with her, makes me really sad but i hate leaving the house now and dont want to go to hers. hate everything right now. hate constantly having headaches. hate having no money. hate the way i look. hate being here.