fuuuck €€

i dont see college going any better this year than it did last year.

feel empty without you here.

i dont know what to do :(

hurry up and come home =(

29. a picture of yourself...

28. the month you were happiest this year.

uuurm...im not sure...August was a pretty awesome month

but catherine does make everyday happy for me :)

quit college, get any full time job. move out.
i dont care how shit the job is i cant stand being here>.<
how is it my fault that the house is a mess?
im never fucking here.
its not my fault if youre daughter doesnt do what you tell her too.
so dont fucking shout at me >.<

ive ruined everything.
she wont see me anymore
theres no point without her.
im so stupid

27. talk about your siblings.

i have an older brother called Daniel. he's 21 and works in london. he lived in manchester but his job finished there so hes come back here until he finds a flat in london by his work. he is a surveyors assistant. we get on bettter now than we used to, but maybe thats because we dont see each other much.
then i have a younger sister called Robyn. shes 18 and rather immature. we share a bedroom and see each other most of the time which is probably why we dont get on very well. we also work together at the chip shop in the summer. cant wait for one of us to move out. think we'd get on better then.

yeeeesterdays one =]


26. your religious beliefs.


i dont have any i dont think... unless harry potterism is a religion?!

25. ten ways to win your heart.

1. make me laugh
2. give me cuddles
3. always be there for me
4. make me feel safe
5. buy me books
6. youd have to be catherine =] she has my heart!!! :D
7. lollipopss!!!
8. accept my pillowcase!!!!
9. love gizzmo!!!!!!
10. stay with me forever?

24. things you want to say to five different people.

1. you mean everything to me and were gunna get married :)
2. miss working with you and seeing you more
3. you annoy the hell out of me. aand you are useless.
4. miss seeing you and having random times.
5. whyd you do it?

There's a party in my pants and you're invited ;)

... But you're not wearing any pants...

Oh my bad, typo, I meant to say anus... ;)

23. something you always think 'what if' about.

what if catherine hadnt liked me back

what if i hadnt worked for david

what if she meets someone else and leaves me for them

what if i stay this big

22. 10 things about you people dont expect.

1. i think im smarter than most people think
2. i dont think they expect me to have an amazing girlfriend like i do.
3. this is haaard!!
4. they dont expect me to be sad
5. they might not expect how down or depressed i get.
6. or that i want to shut myself away from people.
7. catherine has a really nice bum!
8. and i just want a nice big cuddly hug from her!
9. i cant think of anymore =[
10. maybe they dont expect me to fart!!!
    
    

21. something you cant seem to get over

stuff that happened years agian and anytime i make a fool out of myself!!

so yesterday was meant to be the first day back at college, buuut my lesson was bloody cancelled.

they could have at least text or rang to tell me, so i didnt go up to ipswich for nothing, buut no!

but i still had a nice afternnon, went and read in the park and waited for my girl =]

it was sunny but rather windy!!

im now have 135 books left to read on my list!!

hopefully it wont take too long, but were not allowed to buy anymore books until like January 2013 i think it was!!

well no books for our selves anyway =]

i wanna get the pictures form mine and catherine daily photos p[rinted and put on my wall, like a collage....i dunno how its spelt!

anyway i have half hour to get ready and catch the bus! best get dressed!!

20. the last arguement you had.

uuurmm... i dont think ive argued with anyone in a while... me and catherine dont argue =]

and i dont with any of my friends so it was either with mum dad or robyn id guess.

this is yesterdays blog coz i forgot to do it ¬_¬

19. something that never fails to make you feel better.

my beautiful girlfriend catherine. i know most of my blogs relate to her but thats just because she means everything to me and always makes me happy. just by being there and mkaing me smile and laugh, or just holding me close, or even just texting or talking to me on the phone, she always makes me feel better =]

Also megan makes me feel better to, shes my best friend andalways makes me better too

alssssooo!! my pillowcase!

first day back at college tomorrow!

im rather excited, even if it is only so im not in the house as much.

hope the people are the same or better, and noone has changed for the worse, that would be sad =[

really looking forward to my lessons as well and hopefully ill do better this year =]

i wonder what books we'll be reading in english... mmmmmm :)

18. disrespecting parents.

seems pointless, your parents deserve your respect unless they have done something horrible.

I eat poo

17. things that make you scared.

people in the house i dont know when i try sleep. catherine leaving me. loosing megan. failing at everything. not know what sorta job i want or will have. voices. sleep. spiders. gizmo dying and my pillowcase disappearing :(

16. 3 things you are proud of about personality.

i guess i make people laugh quite easily, and i care and im there for people as much as i can be aaand yeeeah

really need a wee!!!!

but i have just painted my nails D=

A - age: 19

B - bedsize: double

C - chores you hate: doing the dishwasher!

D - Day: friday

E - envious of: skinny people

F - favorite colour: blue or red

G - gold or silver: it depends what for :P

H - Height: 5'5 or 6

I - instrument: piano/ keyboard

J - job title: student...or chip fryer!!

K - kids: not yet...

L - live: felixstowe, suffolk

M - mums name: Coral

N - nicknames: terance!

O - overnight stay at the hospital: never been ill really =]

P - pet peeves - someone not answering when you talk to them.

Q - quote from a movie: anything from harry potter!!

R - right or left handed: right handed

S - siblings: an older brother and a younger sister

T - time you wake up: like 7 or half 7

U - undescribable feeling: how happy it makes me when im with catherine and she says iloveyou

V - vegetable you hate: cauliflower

W - what makes you run late: texting, falling asleep, reading or forgetting something

X - X-rays youve had: my neck and mouth

Y - Yummy food you make: me and catherine are good at making nice carbonara and chicken kievs!!!

Z - zoo: lets go to the zooo!!!!

15. the best thing to happen to you this week.

well catherine passed her driving test :D and she took me out for a drive!

im glad she passed coz if she failed she would have gotten really really bad. but she passed =]

and shes a really good driver =]

i have had an amzing couple of weeks.

it was mine and catherines one year a week ago yesterday and catherine booked the whole week off to spend with me =]

we cooked carbonara and chicken kievs

we went shopping in ipswich

we went shopping in norwich - id never been before!! and catherine brought me lunch and took me to build-a-bear and got me pawesome panda, and took me to the bbc shop aaand we had millies cookies!!

weve taken loads of pictures for the scrapbook!

weve watched lots of drwho!

we went out with friends for meggies birthday!

we went book shoppping

we spent nearly everynight together and all days

and we went to have a loook at art on the prom.

then on monday catherine passed her driving test!!!!

well proud of her =]

and shes taken me for a drive today and i was very impressed!!

especially as some new drivers are quite jerky or scary and she wasnt at all.

seemed normal to be driving with her like weve done it for years =] it was lovely

and as im ill shes tucked me up in bed yesterday and todayy and given me lots of hugs and kisses to help in the healing process!!!

14. something disgusting you do.

i never do anything thing disusting!!

...except maybe i have flatulent tendencies!!

and i pick my face alot!

13. a date that you would love to go on.

uuurm doesnt really bother me where we go tbh as long as were together.

buut i would like to have a picnic on the rocks and watch the stars againi <3

12. things you want to say to an ex.

there isnt really anything id say. i still talk to my exs occasionally and its not weird. doesnt feel like there is anything between us either so yeah =]

i missed fridays 30 day challenge!!!

11. your relationship status, if single discuss.

im taken and i love it :) best girlfriend ever ^_^ <3

10. your views on drugs and alcohol

i dont see alcohol as a problem, people like it and enjoy it buut i think its stupid when people drink way too much and it changes how they act and they do stupid things.

drugs are just stupid.:)

9. your last kiss

my last kiss was from my girly firend!

my 8 button doesnt work properlly!!!!

GODDAMMIT!!!

i missed yesterdays one!!! so there is two today!!

7. your opinion on cheating on people.

i wouldnt do it, it hurts to many people and you dont deserve to be with someone if youre going to cheat on them, especially if you then lie about it. id like to say i wouldnt take someone back if they cheatged but i pobably would, depending on who it was.

8. something youre currently worrying about.

im worried that catherine has no food on her and i missed the bus. that college will make me pay and i cant afford to go to college anymore then ill become a bum and not do anything with my life then catheirne will leave me coz she wont want to be with a failure. i want to go back to college. im worried that i keep eating and putting more weight on and that im starting to really hate myself again. and im worried about catherine, how things affect her and make her bad =[