rage!

today has made me so angry!
i woke up and i still have my headache, though nowhere near as bad.
booked a drs appointment for thursday, hopefully theyll be able to help.

robyn is just there all the time now, and its so fucking annoying, i tried to do revsion so she decided to dry her hair, then play on her fucking xbox. not like there isnt a 40 inch tv sitting downstairs not being used or anything. but no. she had to go to the one room where i was revising.

catherines not allowed to stay round in the week anymore because its not fair on robyn as shes 'working'. i do more bloody shifts a week than she does and im at college every fucking day but simons still allowed to stay round at the weekend when i have to work. but of course its different when its robyn. and its not just me being the bitter middle child, everyone else sees how unfair they are being.

and im in the middle of exams, and i know i dont do loads round the house but i do more than robyn does, she plays xbox alll day and gets asked to do nothing, yet as soon as im about to leave for work or college or im revising for my exams that i actually want to pass i get asked to do something. that just isnt fair.

and talking to mum and dad about mortgages has made me sad. catherine and i want to move out this year, even if its only into a rented house, but its so expensive. im really tempted to leave college and get a full time job so we can get some more money than what weve got. i just want to move out of this house. its really making me start to hate my sister for being here all the time.

but staying happy! looking at all the things we could get for when we move out, even look at fridges or washing machines makes me happy!!

ive had an idea and im really excited about it, dont wanna say what it is yet but EXCITED! :D its something for our house (eventually!) to make it nicer but have to start it before i say what it is, so its not just another thing id like to do!