2012

havent blogged in over a month.

i think it was something to do with that i hate the way the blog looks now.

i didnt blog at all over christmas, i didnt really have much time i guess, but christmas and Catherine's birthday were amazing.

christmas day for us was split between both families, and i really enjoyed it. Catherines parents made me feel really included, which meant alot, especially as my family did everything without which was horrible.

i finally met her grandad aswell, and i think he might like me! he seems really nice and doesnt mind me being there, i hope anyway! also catherine met my nana which also was better than i expected

i think catherine enjoyed her birthday though, especially as she got to open her presents in the morning with her family, so i was there at 7:30 in the morning!! and we brought her some fishes, and she seemed really happy :)

saw megan and Kai a few times throughout the holiday, would have liked more but i worked quite a lot :/ i like spending time as the four of us and think it awesome that i see megan more and Kai, AND! we introduced them to our carbonara, with just a hint or garlic... and i think they liked it!

got my exams this week and i know i wont improve on any of my grades but im trying, and ill feel so much worse with these results as i tried really hard and i have actually been revising for once. but i do have the next two weeks off of work..hopefully! which means i can do more revision and spend loads of time with my girl.

so UCAS applications have to be in by the 15th of this month, and i eventually decided i wasnt going to apply. i love the idea of going to uni, but the actual being there and doing the work and finishing, i dont think ill be able to do, also Sarah and Sharon did have concerns over whether id be able to cope there or not. But its something i can come back to, i could be a mature student or do a part time course in the future. so for now ill concentrate on my exams then ill look for a full time job, one that will interest me and id like to actual do.

so, in keeping with the traditional new years resolutions i do have a few;

• loose weight - as always, but it needs to be done, preferably before we go on holiday, im not bothered about weight so much as size, id like to get down to a size 14 this summer so i could actually wear a dress or shorts and not have to wear jeans and look like a hot sweating pig.
• get fitter - i want to start running again and get into it properly, then i can run for distance and would eventually like to run for an hour at the least.
• pass my exams - id like to get decent grades in my lessons, maybe even an A, B, C that would make me happy.
• save my money and get a full time job - need to save so me and catherine can move out, its getting really hard to be away from her over night. but we need enough money so we can move out comfortably.
• write more and start blogging frequently again - i want to try and write everyday.
• keep my room tidy - its making me really angry and grumpy when its messy and i take it out on catherine so that needs to change.
• walk - ive decided that im going to start going for walks again, and im going to bring Catherine and her camera with me, then she'll get back into her photography, i know she misses it.
• meet up with friends more - especially megan and kai, also want to see ness and dev soon to, but i know its difficult as everyone has their own lifes and work and relationships but it would be nice to see everyone at least nice a fortnight.